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08 January 2009 @ 11:41 pm
the piano duet::..  
I need to stop watching stupid movies and reading stupid fanfiction and WRITING stupid fanfiction and watching stupid anime that all have true fucking love in them.

It makes me want to punch something. Like, I wish I was strong enough to put my fist through the wall. Pain would be a good distraction.

I could use a little drama. It would be nice, a change of pace. I want a boy to look at me and like me and fucking do something about it.

I'm so sick of waiting.

I guess that's what I get for passing up the chance when it was right in front of me.

Now he's with some fake-blonde bitch and won't even call me back.

I'm sorry I didn't answer the first time.

It's all one big mistake, but unlike in the movies, I don't have the reckless gall to run back to you.

So you just stay with you blonde bitch and I'll sit here twiddling my thumbs, waiting for someone as half-decent as you to find me.

Because you're my figure of comparison you know.

You always will be.
Current Location: home.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
Current Music: La Campenella- Adam Aleksander
Ofi: musicofifli on January 9th, 2009 05:28 am (UTC)
Hachi, Even though I'm not the knight in your fairy tale, you're the heroine in mine

Just like summer and heartbreak, this too shall pass. And if this is about who I think it is, it is only natural that he is your figure of comparison. He will be surpassed (especially as he's stooped to new lows) because the world is a big big place and you and I are going to go so very far to find our own Sid-Ren-Secret-Agents. This is only a start, even if it feels like a stale mate.

I think when it comes to this never ending circle cyle we will never be able to make a choice that makes us happy for that long with them. I've never really wanted to say or think that, but each time we reach the bottom of our proverbial death cab slide this happens. And it isn't anyone fault...

Sometimes I think that song by Modest Mouse applies to us so well, where he sings "And maybe we'll get lucky..." and he changes the end of the sentence with every verse. You remember when we climbed the tower and your thoughts didn't jumble, it wasn't because of him LinLin, that was all you. You wrote the passages of our as we go fairy tails. This is only one part that story. There has never been any maybe's in your luck.

I've written so much and it's late and all I hope is that this makes sense or at least makes you smile (you'd better not be crying silly)
LyrBlacklyrblack on January 9th, 2009 03:23 pm (UTC)
I'm not crying. I promise.

Patricia Braverman-Knope: garfield - loverhetoricians on January 9th, 2009 08:09 am (UTC)
If he was more decent, he would be with you. He is actually less than half decent, my friend.
LyrBlacklyrblack on January 9th, 2009 03:22 pm (UTC)
I love your honest approach to everything, patricia. Thanks for being grounded.

Patricia Braverman-Knoperhetoricians on January 10th, 2009 04:18 pm (UTC)
Actually I'm kind of a bitch and I wish I was more willing to be happy, lol.

Jessicasmittenginger on January 9th, 2009 03:55 pm (UTC)
I don't have anything beautiful or witty or serious to say. I just want to tell you that I love you, and no matter what, I'm here for you. Through the heartache and the heartbreak, through the happiness and the joy. Through good times and bad. You will find your one. Your only. And then...you can realize the world's full potential.

And, just 'cause you know I always try to make you laugh...Just think of what diseases he might catch from that girl! At least you know /I'm/ STD free. ^.~

I love you, Linlin. *hughug*
LyrBlack: doom songlyrblack on January 9th, 2009 05:01 pm (UTC)
you absolutely never fail to make me laugh babe.

I love you too!